Ahhhhh~~~ ;3
Monday, August 23
lolol, why the heck I wrote that as a title anyways...Oh well.
Hola amigos, just wandering around the net again with nothing much to do except for blogging, YouTube stuff and Facebook...
Well.
At least mum's ok.
Just she have something growing like lumps inside her...
Ehhhhh...
Nevermind.
Don't wanna talk about it today.
Erm... yeah.
Today rained and rained like there's no tomorrow...
But I'm especially happy today.
Or content.
Which ever what you want to call.
They called back again today.
The peeps from the causeway point who were asking my no. and name/age.
Today they called and asked me that can I go for a interview tomorrow...
The girl even said that I was recommended or something.
It was pretty trilling... to tell you the truth.
But, I decided, after what Issa had told me that I decided not go.
Besides...
I don't think I'm suitable for free-lance modeling.
What if it was a scam...
Oh well.
I had my doubts and stuff like that.
...
I think it was why my mum called me a simple-minded girl all the time.
Now I think about it seriously...
If people categorized me as a ''simple-minded, naive girl''...
What about Eyna and Issa?
...
Pardon me for saying it, amigo, but this is my kind of view on you.. hm..
Issa...
I think she's the ''experienced, loner girl'' while Eyna is the ''Straight-forward angry girl''.
I mean...
I said that about ''angry'' is that...
Most of her emotions are pretty passionate or something.
I think the most emotion I've ever seen from her is happiness or loftiness or something mix of the two beside her second close emotion, to being angry.
I feel that her sadness is like... anguish sadness or something.
Well... that's how I feel.
For Issa... Ehhhhhhhhhh.
Well.. sometimes she just makes me feel like there's a invisible wall around her sometimes.
I wanna go close to her but I can feel it will be awkward or even weird to just approach her when she's like that.
Kinda makes me feel like a little child all over again...
...Wait, the feeling is.. is.. I think it's called a ''parent'' feeling.
..Yeah.
I think that's it.
She makes me feel like that is probably because she makes me think subconsciously that she is like, um, like a parent or a guardian or something.
Which is a good thing... I think.
I don't know what else to say..
...
I wanna tell you guys how I really feel about you guys but I think there's something with my eyes getting sand in all the time every time I try to tell it.
Oh well.
Just wanna say you all are like my sun to my world eh. (:
..
Eyna is probably the sun..
Isaa would be the clouds.
...
Yeah.
That's pretty much about it.
Eh.
...
OK, awkwarddddd
Uhm.
You guys make me the person I'm now I suppose.
Makes me feel safe.. I suppose.
Makes me feel normal...
Um...
I don't know what else to day but...
In my heart, I know that if you guys ever leave one day, I might just be too heartbroken to be happy again.
...
Might..
...
Eh.
Better not do silly stuff.
~out & gone Kino//
...this is so depressing.
Why the HELL that I even wrote about this today...?
Ehhhh-- bad premonition!
Labels: bit gloomy..., come to school Idiot, Ehhh just content la, Eyna, gratitude, Issa, tired, wtf-whydoievenwritethis...
-- eclecticSeeker [eS] signing off and being awesome offline at 23:38 --