Today's such a emotional day.
It is.
Everybody at the end of the school was crying. Well, almost everybody.
Guys like SL didn't managed to cry but he said that guys must keep his tears to himself and cry inside their hearts instead.
Don't know if it's true for him or not, but I think it is.

Almost all the girls had cried. Even me, and even Issa.
We're very very emotional!
I don't mind though, but the way it has started makes me smile.
HZ started to cry first, and he's just a few steps away from us when we were all lining up to shake hands with the teachers, to exchange greetings and stuff.
He's very emotional, and then I just felt connected.
And then I cried, and Issa cried.
All the way until the middle when I tried to stop and succeeded.
Just focusing on moving on until I get back to my seat and proceed to tear up a little more.
All along the way...
I met some of the greatest and the most admirable teachers in my school today..
People like Miss Siti, my GP..
She cried too!
Awww and that made us cry even more. Eheheh (:
Then there's a lots more teachers who felt close to me sometime in the past, like Mr Soh, Miss Fong and all

Mr Soh gave me a pat at my head and back eheheheh

Shh, let's move on!
In the end, I hugged more than I can possibly can count mainly because I can't remember HOW MANY but each hug I gave I felt more and more comforted.
That Fuchun Secondary School's my second home, home away from family, as well as class 4N1'11, being the closest class family I've ever experienced.

I'm sure I'll miss everyone who's close to me in school. Those who had left me impressions that would never go away.

I promised though, I'll get Literature at least an A2! For Mdm Marjubee.
Promises promises

I'll have to study hard, and learn more stuff in my life.
Never stop learning, ever.

All I'm going to say though, for this graduation ceremony..
I felt that I had left a part of myself in that school, in everyone who is a friend to me in that school.
That's why I felt part empty, especially when I was leaving school.
I didn't want to go, but I had nothing else left in school.
Maybe for that extra Maths guidance but...
I don't think I'm up for it at that point of time.
Too many thoughts going through me.
And now, since I'm home, I'm gonna bath, nap, watch Supernatural, and spend the rest of my day revising Sciences.

I'll never forget this day, and the hugs I've given and received in return, the words being said, especially by KH LOL and the time being spend here, in Fuchun Secondary School.
I hope I do get into a nice Poly, that at least I can do well in, and that everybody gets a good life but...
Life's that unpredictable isn't it?
Anyways, hope I get into 5n next year and Issa gets to have nicer memories!

In the end, I've noticed...
SB looked extremely sad when he cried. So don't cry anymore, alright? Not more than you can withstand. You deserve to be happy! Smile!
And KH, I wonder how he truly felt when he said those words, seriously. I was laughing yes, but I wonder...
SM, on the other hand... Well. :S

Alright then, this is hopefully the last time I would ever posted that I cried out of mix emotions in real life and all, and now, TIME FOR A BATH!

P.s Mom's home! Gosh.
And, YES to JH. I'LL COME BACK NEXT YEAR!! I WOULD LIKE TO SEE YOU COME BACK AS WELL AHHH
;u;

Labels: CRYING FEST, even the not so close ones, everybody's CRYING, I'll miss anyone who have been a friend and nice to me in all these years, school have never been this close to me..., WWWEEEEEEHHCRIES

I had another dream last night!
Yay!
Though I couldn't remember much, I had the feeling I was 'dealing' with someone or something...
Maybe even as a group of someone's or somethings!
Whooooo!

I'm kind of content today!
Since I can finally play DJ Max Portable since trying to find available links for it yesterday night...
And maybe even into the early morning..
I remembered seeing the sky turning blue though.
So I'll guess it's around 6-7 in the morning when I finally go to sleep while playing W.T.F
...
WORK TIME FUN
damn.
It's so hard to earn money in the jobs in Work Time Fun...
Bluh
The second most I've got is from the chick sorting job.
Earned $13++ which is quite a lot.
But then, come next is the pen capping game and earned $20++
Hahahaha well...
It's okay, really.
It's just, very, very boring.
Borderline lame and 'I want to quit this job' feel.
Hoho.
At least I'm okay with it.
I saw somebody capping at least a hundred thousand. Which is scary.
But I think he used some form of machine or something to tap for him while he's gone.
Doesn't matter the pen is capped correctly or not.
I do that too. :D

Onto some more stuff, I think I'll start layout the foundation for the alternate troll universe I've come up with.
With the second new version of the game and all.
Or maybe they were forced into playing somehow.
Still hadn't find out a good reason as to why they will play again.
Maybe a visitor from the future?
....
GAMZEE?
...
LOL. I'M SCARING MYSELF, HAHA

Okay, okay, calm down.
Don't need to rush yet.
About what just happened, ignore that.
I was thinking to myself... About scenarios. Yes.
Scenarios.
Scary and dangerous scenarios.
Which makes all the story more realistic. With the threatening of the future and universe and all. Yes.

Okay then, aside that, I've helped mum to bring up pots of plants today.
Ugh.
Mum, she'll just keep bring back home plants and flowers like they're puppies or kittens isn't she...
Oh well.
Everybody gotta have a hobby or something.
At least it keeps her busy. Somewhat.
I do like plants and flowers...
It's just the dirt I didn't like. Ho.
I DO HAVE PLANTS IN MY PHONE THOUGH.
Virtual ones.
Which are pretty and long-lasting if you ask me. (8
And then, before that, I had managed to just practically do anything that's non productive until now.
I count updating in my blog productive.
I make use of my very adequate English, okay.
While blogging.

Tomorrow I had to start school again, like every week before the school holidays.
It's a late day tomorrow, and I'm expecting to stay back again for lessons and stuff.
I'm not particularly bitter about it though, just tired. Usually.
That one time with Miss Fong is very memorable. I love it.
We were all laughing and joking and talking very openly.
That one joke about Jarius's eyes is the funniest thing I've heard that day.
Saying how Miss Tracy had thought he was sleeping and loudly said 'Jarius, wake up! Don't go to sleep!'
And then Jarius, for him, he's not sleeping at all!
And he replied 'My eyes are small!'
Ahhahahahahah
The best thing I've heard since quite some time ago.
It's nice, laughing.
It's like something had opened inside you, making you feel a lot less tense and more relaxed.

Back to stuff about tomorrow, I'm half expecting Mrs. Chan to pick me out and talk with me again.
And I'll have to tell her that mum wasn't home and she had called me to go home to quickly turn off the stove for the soup. So, yup.
I'm half lying but yeah, somethings are easier when people don't know the whole truth.
I don't particularly like lying, but I'll do it under special circumstances.
Buh.

Now I'm just going to end it just like this, since.. Well..
I got nothing more to add.
Maybe just another line of school and blah but I'll save you from my boring thoughts about school.
Alrighty then!
Goodnight guys. Be safe!
Scary things are real.

Labels: being unproductive for the weekend y/y?, can't wait for season 5 for SPN, hilarious jokes are really good for me, Scary things are really real, the life of a student sucks once again

Close enough then.
For that Three in the Morning song. :D
Hahahah
Well, you won't know what I'm talking about, then I guess you should totally check out Homestuck then!
It rocks.
Seriously.
That Intermission, will be the best Intermission I have ever seen.
Besides that silly intermission word bouncing around in that one music video I've seen.
The Homestuck Intermission is the BEST!
Go Midnight Crew!

Alright, now I'm updating this just cause I just wanted to.
You know?
Just feel like writing down something before the next week comes and the after is N-Levels.
/Shudder/
Scary.

I was actually really sincere about going for that Maths afterschool guiding, but for all that is me...
I forgotten I had to do something about dinner tonight, which Mum taught me how to.
Meh.
In the end, you know what happened?
I met Mum at the bus station, just after saying goodbye to Issa and handshake'd...
And Mum just tells me she'll do the dinner preparations since she got more tine than she had expected.
So I'm like, 'What...'
I missed the guiding today.
Oh well.
I hope Mrs. Chan doesn't lecture me about this or something.
Sorry! :|

On the weirder side of things, recently I've been having dreams that I can't remember, but I get the feeling I did dreamt of something!
Somehow.
It's like dream residue or something.
It's just there.
Man, I wished I can remember more of my dreams.
They're super weird and interesting.
Always have some form of mixture of the stuff I've seen or whatnots.
It's just refreshing to see things in the way I see things in my dreams.
And oh yes, I dream of people, too.
Not just places or experiences or adventures. :D
And then, I went and fell asleep while I was playing Disgaea 4 for a while on the sofa... Neck hurts but whatever.
Oh!
Another interesting fact, lately if I went back earlier from school, I might be able to see my mum at the same bus station!
...
Which reminds me of Hussbus...
...
Beep beep update!
:D

Okay then, there's not much left to write in my mind right now, since I do feel kind of sleepy and all, I'll just end here for now.
Maybe I'll update soon enough after adequate rest! Goodbye!

Labels: body aches what, Exams are annoying and scary, Homestuck RULES, I am more tired than usual, I love the Midnight Crew

Totally wasn't going to abandon this blog okay. I just didn't know what to write for the next post you see...
But now I just got nothing else and I really want to post something so here I go!

Lately, this cold weather is really kicking my butt hard.
I need to wear my jacket as soon as I got out of the bathroom and well jeez
My legs suffering the whole thing since I'm not used to wearing long pants anyway.
Why is is so darn COLD?!
There's been raining for the past few days, and you know what happened?
Since 2 days ago, it has always been raining in the afternoon when I want to get back home from school.
And on these days, I didn't bring my green precious umbrella, and even on the first day, I was staring longingly at my umbrella!
Turns out it did rained I was defenseless against the onslaught of RAIN ugh
And guess what!
After two days of raining I decided to bring my umbrella today!
AND IT DIDN'T RAIN MUCH
what are you playing rain
I hate you so much.

Anyways, that's just about my hate rant about rain and all how's it's my nemesis and what not...
Aaaaaaaand now about something else.

Visited 爷爷 last Sunday.
It was kind of... Mellow I guess.
He seems to be more relaxed too.
I just hope he doesn't suffer anymore if he needs to go.
Meh.
Talking about this kind of stuff kinds of makes me feel uneasy.
I was never the one to be so comfortable around death anyways.

On to more side stuff, I was back and through and fro with several plot lines and stuff.
It's kind of making me weirder out, because I have no idea what I was thinking at the end.
Like, I was thinking about this story about a child who can see the beginning and the end but I somehow managed to messed it up with some character in a Homestuck based story...?
hahahahahah well that kind sucked.
Oh well.

At least now I know what I want to do first, which is the Homestuck based story. It's more of a thing I would like to draw than write, really.

For school, everything's quite normal I guess.
With the national exams' coming and all, we're all doing more revisions and worksheets.
It's actually kind of okay, for me.
I just wished there's something else besides worksheets. Bluh

Day's getting shorter and shorter as time goes by, and it sure does feel a little unsafe.
But I'm alright.
Mum's okay and Dad's okay.
So I guess I'm gonna be okay, too.
Bye then!
Gonna post more when MORE interesting stuff happens. :D

Labels: crazy weird assed ideas floating in my head, exams are coming, mum's not acting crazy, SCHOOOOL is boring, so does dad

Yes! I've done it yet again!

Labels: Dresden Files, the reward for work is more work, this is incredibly rewarding for some reason, why good things have to be so hard to get

Okay, I'm back and now I'm posting for the first time through my phone!
Like, FINALLY.
I've tried to find applications like this, I swear, I just can't find it until now Google released this.
Oh maaaaaaan.

I've always liked writing, like, you know, spill out my guts and thoughts like this.
Or just write, just for the feel of typing or movement with my fingers.
So yeah, this is a real good app for me to also let me type AND post my blog once more.
I'm going to clean out this blog though, maybe later or even tomorrow.
I need to clean this and maybe change this skin.
I like the clouds, but it's blocking the words. Ehehehe
Can't move them in phone or anything not in computer.

Recently, it's been like a battlefield here, at home.
More like, territorial grounds than anything, really.
And I'm on the neutral ground.
The middle between two territories, I don't want to messed up with.

Life's like this, when you love both of them, just not understanding.

Times like this I wished I wasn't such a understanding daughter.
I want to fight.
But I'm scared.
Because I know their reasons for their cold war.
And because I know, I know it's both their fault and not their fault at the same time.

In the end, I'll just feel this is all my fault blah blah blah.

I'm feeling quite okay now, since the worse have been done for today.
I just hope it doesn't go awry.
Please.
No.

Alright, on the brighter side, at least it's going to be okay, for now.
And, that I'm going to be quite busy lately and stuff and tomorrow Issa's coming and such.

And maybe go see Miss Joanna.
Maybe. Issa want to go though, so if she still wants to go, I'll go, too.

It's nice to have a place to just, hide.
Forget about the outside world, and relax, for the time being.
...okay okay, I'm being back to the unhappy side, but yeah.

Be optimistic!

Yessss

Going to post this then, latersss

Labels: cold war sucks even more, I'm just going to label whatever I want now, school sucks