I'm just going to leave my mark here.
I've been.. what, missing from Blogger for the last 9 months!
Holy crap, that is a long time to start updating..
At least I came back within a year hehe.
Anyway, loads of things have happened and I think I've matured up a little more since the last time I've updated.
Maybe you guys can't tell through looking at my blog entries, but I do feel a little jaded.
Occasionally.
That'll be my so-called Black Moods.
It's rather jarring and quite upsetting.
Thankfully it only comes like, once or twice a year.
It is only now that I have come to realise I do have such breakdowns, in occasion.
Which only makes me more human right?
Or am I being a masochist..??
ANYWAY, I think keeping all these tumbling complicated mash of emotions + bad thoughts together inside of you, bottling it up as the phrase goes is too big of a challenge now.
Or is it?!

Such things are negative when viewed in ways like you can't move on or when things just don't look as bright for you anymore.
But I have learnt to accept what I can and having to push myself forward even if it hurts just as bad.
I have suspicions on where these thoughts of mine could have come from but in the end, I wondered why do I even feel in this way.
Because I know better, that things aren't what it was that I was thinking about..
I guess it have to do with social-fear then??
Still not sure, and the more I talk about it the more vague it gets. #_#

Now I'm being alright I suppose.
As alright as knowing you possibly lost almost all the stuff you have on your computer, including music files, documents, work-in-progress sketches, and EVERYTHING ELSE I HAVE EVER COLLECTED ONLINE ugh.
Heart-breaking moment for a while there.
I moved on though, and I found back some of my stuff and the slightest miracle that I happen to saved my game files on another storage drive...
Have to find the time to restore all my music files I suppose.
wwweh.

Homestuck-wise,
OH MY GOODNESS ROSE.
ROSE.
YOU LALONDE GURL,
YOU FINALLY MADE THE MOVE.
But..
KANAYA. POOR KANAYA.
Wait.
No, not POOR, but YAY KANAYA(???)!

It's kinda sweet in a way but.. WOW.
This is like Jake and Dirk again except people are not really expecting it until the very last pages?!
Hahah I don't really actively ship these two but boy, are they really cute together. ^^

(Don't mind me I'm a pretty recent shipper.)
Also, I may update again much later. Possibly in the early morning lateness sort. I hope not.

Labels: Black Moods are upsetting, HOMESTUCK UPDATE, I HATE LOSING STUFF I'VE COLLECTED, once in a blue moon hopefully, ugh